So why don't you give him what he wants? Why don't you feed the Anxiety Monster all of your worst thoughts and your most shameful deeds? Send him a basket full of anxiety, all of the unkind words that you say to yourself over and over again.
You can feed him all of your angst and woe, but know this – he is always hungry and will always want more. He will never be satisfied with what you left at the door. So how do you deal with a monster who is always hungry?
The only way to stop him from eating a hole through your heart is to make room for him there. Find a space that he can live on all the love that you can give, a space where he can heal the woe of all that he ate so long ago. Swaddle him in the folds of your heart, finally accept him as one tiny part, a part of you that expects too much, from yourself and others, a heavy touch.
Remember that the only way to turn away from praise and blame, pride and shame, it to be just a little more kind to the monsters of your mind. See the wisdom that they represent rather than see their rage, angst, and lament. Gather your monsters with love and care, acknowledging the wisdom hidden in there.
For the Anxiety Monster can be open and free, the wisdom of equanimity, seeing all things, both big and small, as worthy of love from one and all. What appears as a monster is just one side, for the wisdom, it does tend to hide, or rather the monster is too scary, for us to see its wisdom clearly. So kiss your monster on the cheek – notice it, but let it sleep, don't feed it with the stories of our mind that we tell ourselves all the time. Let it be and you will see the wisdom within anxiety.
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